when i'm feeling sad...

Won't it be better to take my life away, sometimes I feel. So they would realize how stupid they have been? So that they'd know that I've been nothing but miserable. I really don't feel like talking about it. Makes me feel all my decisions I've made lately were fucked. Everything isn't good enough.
Not helping that he is not picking up the phone. Nor is he replying to my sms-es.

Thank you for everything. But I'm not sure how long I can take it.
So much for a happy new year.
Even when I tried explaining. Even when I tried to reason. Even when I told you that all you can do is control me because the elder one was a lost cause. And all you can do is blame him.

Oh thanks.
Stop blaming him. I feel horrible on both ends.
It's all my fault.

Perhaps at the end of it all, you're left with nothing but yourself.